Already Packed

I was going to write about the COVID culture, and how the act of bullying has taking over {by both those for and against}, but spirit decided that I should write about something of substance and depth. So get ready, for I am going to talk about what we don’t want to talk about. Death. Oh yeah. It’s coming for you.

Why death? Why now? The truth is, I don’t know. I act on life based on my feelings, not my thoughts. So when meditating, if I feel led to speak about death, I speak about death. No agenda behind the message. Just letting what surfaced, come out. And the phrase that keeps coming to mind is “packed”. And then I thought about my {life} experience, and it is entirely about the experience. Let me explain….

My life has been marked by extreme highs and lows. But one thing that never really changed is my optimism. I don’t know if that is because I worked as a crisis counselor for 2 decades, or that I spent 3 and a half decades working in mental health. In other words, I have seen things, horrific things, that no one should have to see. And despite it all, I see it all as a beautiful experience. Weird, yeah I know. I don’t judge it. I just keep my eyes on the next experience. So when the thought of death comes to mind, I see it as just another experience. 

The wife and I are coming out of {without a doubt} the darkest decade in our lives. I am making great money, I’m in demand, we live in a beach town and we travel every month. I have the love of my life at my side. I am really blessed. But here’s the thing. This will all end. The money, the marriage and the notoriety. Gone. All that I can take is the memories. So I make them. Every kiss from my wife feels like an eternity. Every time we watch a sunset, makes me believe in eternity. Every time I extend a hand of mercy, opens the door to eternity. See what I am getting at? 

I don’t think I’ve ever been afraid of death. While I am not rushing to go through that experience, the life that I lived has led me to a full heart. I know those experiences will travel with me. So when I was recently asked if I was ready for death. Baby, I am already packed.